I'm Addicted....

I am utterly addicted to knitting.  I fear this blog might take on the form of a chronology of my knitting projects.  Apologies, but as I never really laid out guidelines per say for the blog, you can't truly be mad at me.  It's already pretty ADD as it is... just add one more branch of conversation to the concoction.  

Knitting was a craft I'd always wanted to learn, but just didn't know how to correctly start down the path.  A craft that my mom had done as a youth and constantly told me she would show me (much as what happened with learning to play the guitar).  A group of my <ahem> nerdier and more awesome friends started knitting in what seemed like a mass of creativity.  We would meet up for breakfast somewhere and they would all have their yarn and paraphernalia.  I wanted to learn DAMNIT!  So I asked a friend how she had learned.   Youtube.com.   

About a week later I talked my mom into taking me to Joann's and I bought my first knitting needles and a huge skein of black yarn.  Went home, set myself up in front of the computer and started watching video tutorials.  Try and fail and try again.  I eventually got the knit stitch and started to go like a bat outta hell.  Well, kind of...  There were plenty of dropped stitches, accidental double stitches, and quite a few combined stitches. But I just kept going with it.  And before too long, I had a large black mass of knitted yarn.  It was too small to be a blanket and much to large to be a scarf, but I had knitted it!  And that was what counts.  

After that, the bug slightly nibbled on the back of my neck.  I started a scarf project with four colors and it ended up being more work then anticipated so I lost my thrill of it.  I put it in the closet, just another one of many failed projects I lose interest in after awhile.  

It wasn't until a Saturday morning, sitting at a local dive bar waiting for the college football games to start... that the pesky little bug in the back of my mind decided to attack!  I had to have something to do with my hands.  I dragged my boy around Target in the hope I would find something cheap that I could do sitting at a bar for the next 5 or more hours.  Nothing!  Then it struck me.  The light bulb hovering above my head light up so bright and quick it exploded.  Joann's!  It was right next door.  So I went and got a skein of yarn and a set of needles.  We went back to the bar and I started knitting.  About two weeks later I had a scarf (pictured below on the left).  A friend asked me to make her one (below on the right, pictured right after finishing the last stitch at the bar that started it all).  And my piece de resistance, the middle picture, soft, warm, super long, fringy... everything I wanted to make for my very own scarf!  

And from there, who knows.  My sister has requested a scarf.  My boy has requested a hat!  How nice it is to have a hobby that is calming and useful and appreciated!

All I know for sure is I will keep knitting and knitting and knitting and knitting....

Its all fun and games and then your computer explodes...

If you've read what little I have blogged... you will know I have some crap luck.  I have come to the conclusion that I am cursed. I am not sure which entity or diety or divinity I have pissed off, but life is continuing on getting crappier and crappier.

I infected the computer I borrowed for my boy with some nasty virus (I am once again lacking computer and wow withdrawls are starting to give me the shakes).  The cyst on my coccyx is back and in need of an appontment for removal (there is a 50% chance to get these again when you've already had one removed... so yea).  My roommate informed me she was leaving (this one might not be so bad...).  Fights all around.  Pain in the body...  I'm over it.

But ya know what they say.... at least you've got your health.... oh.... wait..................... 

Movie Time

It's Friday Night... I'm home alone.... and I've just watched a movie.  Gave me the idea to do a weekly movie recap of what I have watched.  Share the wealth for those who are looking for a good movie to watch.  Most of the movies I watch are Netflix Instant View.  If you don't have Netflix... well, I don't know what to tell you... 

This week has been an emotional roller coaster for me in real life.  So this week I tried to find movies that would not make me think too hard or cry too much.  And in the process I found my favorite characters of two of my already favorite actors.  I also took a walk down memory lane with an old favorite and learned that no matter how bad the preview makes it look, some movies aren't all that bad.

Read at your own risk and don't judge too hard when you see what I have been spending my time watching...

 

First up, a random walk down memory lane for me.  I am all about animated features.  Rock-A-Doodle was one of my favorites as a youngin.  I probably have not watched it in 12 years, so I was very happy when I saw it on Netflix.  Originally released in 1992, it's by the same people who did An American Tale and The Land Before Time (both all time favorites of mine - even though I will always cry like a baby during Fievel's song and when Littlefoot's mom dies).  It has that same classic animation feel to it that makes you curl up with a stuffed animal and appreciate the good things.  

Rock-A-Doodle is about a rooster named Chanticleer who's voice brings up the sun.  When it's discovered that the sun rises even without his call, he is shunned from home and makes it in the big city as The King.  It's pretty much the best Elvis impersonation I've ever seen.  The evil owl's have a plan to make it night all the time, until Edmund takes it upon himself with the help of some other animal characters to bring Chanticleer back.

This was just a nice happy movie for me.  The animation is classic and nostalgic.  The music is all Elvis inspired.  Definitely a great watch.

Easy A was surprisingly good.  Emma Stone is a new favorite of mine.  Her sarcastic delivery of lines makes me smile... probably cause it kind of reminds me of me...

It's (very) loosely based on The Scarlet Letter.  Olive accidentally starts a rumor regarding the loss of her virginity.  The trend catches on and before she knows it people are paying her (via gift cards) to say that they had been a notch added on her belt. 

The cast was just perfect, my favorite being Stanley Tucci cast as the father of Olive.  He had some of the funniest lines in the movie.  Amanda Bynes as the God obsessed antagonist trying to get Olive expelled, even if she was a little too fake tan orange.  It runs in the same family as Mean Girls and all in all a good teener movie to pass the time.

 

I hate to admit this one.  I am NOT a Nicolas Cage fan.  I laugh at the ridiculousness of just the previews of his movies.  When I found out they were making a movie based on the segment on Fantasia that is known the world over I was skeptical.  When I found out it stared Cage I flat out revolted against the movie.  When I saw the first movie still of him with that awful mop on his head I rolled my eyes and said Hell No!  Does no one remember the travesty that was Haunted Mansion???  Alas...  it was on Netflix.  So fine... I will try it out.

I was pleasantly surprised.  Yes, Cage delivers his lines with a little too much melodrama (even for someone playing a non aging wizard who was apprentice to Merlin).  Jay Baruchel provides the tweener comedic relief in his klutzy wizard in training apprentice.  The plot line is your typical Disney main stream...  Klutzy kid likes girl, klutzy kid finds out he is special or magic or whatever (always accompanied by a mentor), klutzy kid saves world, klutzy kid gets girl.  We've seen it all before.  Alfred Molina really made it as the antagonist sorcerer. The magic fight scenes are fun.  Car chases through New York while using magic to switch up the car you are in.  Creating a mirror portal that transports into a mirror world. 

It may have been because I had NO expectations whatsoever.  You could probably say I had below zero expectations even.  Maybe it's cause I was watching it late at night and not paying 100% attention.  Perhaps it's cause I didn't really spend any money on it.  Either way, I have to say it was not terrible.  And that is making me hate myself just a little bit.

Benny and Joon.  I will start this off by saying I am a HUGE Johnny Depp fan.  I love him in pretty much everything.  I had never seen this film... and it made me love him even more.  That being said, this may be the favorite role I have seen him in.  

Depp plays Sam, a quirky unwanted man who acts around like someone of the silent film era (it may be my obsession with Charlie Chaplin that made the character so appealing for me).  He is pushed onto Benny, who already has his hands full with his sister Joon who is mentally ill.  In all it's a love story, but also one of acceptance and joy.  Depp has a little scene where he is playing it up Buster Keaton style and it was so spot on.  That along with Chaplin's dinner roll dance made the whole thing well worth it.

Ah..... Charlie Chaplin...  I have been in love with him the last few months.  It might not be healthy, but I don't really care.   Now... imagine Robert Downey Jr in the role of Chaplin and you have yourself one of my new favorite movies. 

The movie goes into the behind the camera life of Chaplin.  Starting out with him as a child, slum living with a mother slowly going insane.  Shows his leap from stage actor to screen movie star.  Goes into his marriages and sordid affairs.  It's a great cast, including Kevin Kline as the great Douglas Fairbanks.  This movie is based on Chaplin's autobiography so I can only assume on how accurate it is.  The movie itself is set up as a flashback as Chaplin is talking over his book with an editor.

Watching this movie came on the coat tails of reading Sunnyside which revolves around several people's story, one of which being Chaplin at the time of the war and the issues he faced with not fighting.  It goes into that a bit in this movie.  It's just uncanny watching Downey Jr perform as Chaplin.  It just absolutely became and new favorite movie as well as my new favorite role of Downey Jr. 

Well my dears, that is all from me for now.  Time to snuggle down with the kitty, put on some Chaplin shorts, and fall asleep for a new day...

Living With and In Technology

I hate living in this technological age.  Everything is connected.  No matter what.  And, yes, I realize the idiocy of venting this on an internet blog... thank you very much.

Remember the good old days, when you got into an argument with someone and you could slam the phone down into the cradle with that satisfying sound.  The person on the other end of the line heard a slam and a click and a dial tone and KNEW you were pissed.  If you were really pissed, hell.... unplug the line.  This came in handy too when you were horribly depressed and just wanted to forget the world and imagine that the world had forgotten you. 

Now however, in the age of internet and smart phones, if you want to ignore someone, its a huge process that unless you are really SERIOUS about not talking to someone, it's just not worth it.  First off, on a cell phone, hanging up on someone in a rage, just doesn't have the same dramatic effect you got with a nice big receiver hitting it's cradle.  There are times that I will keep on talking thinking there is someone on the line listening, when in actual fact one or the others phones has simply cut off.  No noise, no warning... just sudden silence and the imposing feeling that you are talking to yourself.  I wonder how many times I have hung up on some one in a rage and they continued talking as if I was still there.  Not to mention the only way to stop someone from continuously calling your cell phone until you pick up is to turn the thing off... in which case...there goes my clock... And I don't know about your phone, but it takes about 30 minutes to turn my android back on so lord help you when you decide you are ready to talk to them again... or if there is a sudden emergency.

Speaking completely hypothetically, of course, lets say you are having a discussion that turns sour with someone on google, gmail, chat, talk, whatever...  In the midst of the conversation you grow tired of the circling of words and decide to sign off on the convo.  BYE!  Close the browser and have done with it.  Seconds or so later and <beep> your phone gives off it's tiny notification alert.  Looking at the screen...  the person you just left in a huff is responding to your chat, completely ignoring the send off you just sent now it's being automatically transfered to your phone.  What the what!?!  So now, unless you want to scramble through the settings of phone and chat and figure out how to un-sync the account without destroying the phone settings entirely for after you have had your little tantrum, you are stuck...  Are you mad enough to not answer the chat?  Cause you know that person isn't going to stop until you respond.  Or, worse yet, if you don't respond it will probably make things all the worse in the long run.  Do you respond and possibly further the words and hurt feelings...  or do you ignore and do just about the same thing. 

It's a god damn double edged sword is what that is...

FUKITOL

You know those days where you just want to laugh and cry and run around screaming all at the same time...

Let's just say my day started with a bang..... By being rear ended at 8am right across the street from my work.  I have this instinct of looking in my rear view mirror anytime I slow down or stop.  It stemmed from two rear end collisions in my life as well as a general lack of trust in the entire human population of planet earth.  So I am in the right hand lane to turn right with about 7 cars ahead of me stopped at a light that had JUST turned green.  I slow to a stop with plenty of room and look in my rear window just in time to see a guy in the left hand lane swerve into the right hand lane in front of the car behind me.  I had exactly enough time to think, "shit, that guy is goi....."  and WHAM!  Right in to the back of me.  Tires squealing, metal crunching, neck whip-lashing.  I pulled to the side of the street and he followed.  He was actually quite nice and forthcoming.  I wrote down EVERY bit of information I could derive from insurance, drivers license, and car registration.  And we went on our way.  I was so shaken... literally shaking.  I've been in accidents, but never as the driver in a one on one situation with my accidenter.  I had no idea what I was supposed to do.  Perhaps call the police.  Take pictures of the damage.  I don't know.  All these thoughts were going through my head and all I could think was... god damnit, I just want to get to work... 

I don't like that heart pounding, hand shaking feeling.  Not when it is in a non controlled instance.  Those feelings are fine when I am at Disneyland staring at the goat on Big Thunder.  But damnit all if I want that on a daily basis and unbeknownst to my.

Now I have to wait and see how the guy wants to handle things....  but I can feel my neck getting tighter... even through the Tylenol/Codine I just swallowed.........................

Soooo....

...weary.  I'm just tired.  I'm tired of life.  I wish against wishing that things would get better.  Things aren't necessarily BAD...  they just suck.  I'm sick of struggling in life.  I wish just once, something would go easy... or at least easier.  When I first started this blog, I was unemployed and lonely and depressed.  Now I am just tired and weary and stuck.  I fear writing in this blog because I don't want it to become a woe unto me place.  But I think I just want to write things down.  I'm determined to make it through and write more...  so from here on out... once a day, you are going to be privy to whatever is in my head.  Perhaps a book review (I just started a great book by Erik Larsson), maybe a gripe over my day, movie reviews, maybe even some random stream of consciousness writing.  Who knows.  Perhaps I should change the title to Grab Bag of Emotions... haha.  For now, this thought process came to late and I am super excited to watch Chaplin, so that is all for tonight.... more tomorrow... you lucky follower you...  o_O

You know....

... those times when some higher power looks at your life and decides to take it and scramble it all around and spit it back out in some semblance of what your life was... but with changes that you aren't sure you are ready to brag about or maybe you want to just shove them back down inside and pretend they never happened...  That has been my life since I wrote last....  Just over two months ago...

There have been fights and tears....  There have been misunderstandings and pain...  There have been jokes and laughter and joy...  There has been not enough of some things and way too much of others...  I got a job... I quit Bikram...  My computer died and I have an ongoing love/hate relationship with my phone... I finally got "him" all to myself...  I've found people and finally let others go... I've renewed and rekindled great friendships with great people...

I know what I want and I am going after it... Full Force!!!  This truly is a new dawn, a new day, a new life... And I am excited to see what it has in store for me...